Suspended

Suspended far in the sky... The doldrums of the old sailors Love torments Music adds to the surreal The World calls Flight sings its sweet song Love is lost?

Insomina and pointlessness

I have been in a massive funk for a least a few months. Work is frustrating, long, doesn't pay very well and I feel like I am making no advancement. The search for a "better" more permanent job is fruitless at best, utterly and completely discouraging at worst. I find myself alternating from being so busy I can't even think in my three and a half day, 40-50 hour work week to being horribly bored on my weekend. I feel completely unstimulated by my life right now. I'm trying to change that, but as I sink in to someone of a hypo-depression, I seemingly lose the willpower and ability to figure out how to change it. I also know I have so much to be thankful for...which makes the depressive state worse because I feel guilty and irrational for dwelling on the negative. Consequently, I very rarely discuss the full extent of my feelings with anyone. ...And as usual, I just ran out of compositional steam even though I had more to say, ha.